Tuesday, January 25, 2011

"If You Feel Better"


"If you feel better
telling me I’m cruel
saying I’m unfeeling
I don’t mind
if it’s necessary
if it helps you out
crying that I’m heartless
it’s alright
well I’m sorry
to cause you so much pain
but it occurs to me
you’re acting like a ten year old
so glad you’re still in touch
with your inner child
all the same what can you really hope
to gain from complaining
I could apologize for all the things
I’ve never done
but how much fun would that be
so no I won’t do that
but if you feel better
telling me I’m cruel
saying I’m unfeeling
I don’t mind
if it’s necessary
if it helps you out
crying that I’m heartless
it’s alright
won’t make me sorry
‘cause I’m cruel
won’t hurt my feelings
‘cause I don’t have any
won’t break my heart
‘cause it’s not there to break
if you feel better
my mistake
I don’t need to hear
you love me
when it’s clear
I’m on your mind
all these thoughts
you’re thinking of me
how have I been so unkind
but oh I see
it’s been a losing battle all along
so if you feel better
go ahead and say I’m wrong"



By Emilie Autumn

"Lost"




"Lost in myself I cannot feel
Control I aim I stumble and fall
Believing you that's why I loose
Emotionless I'm falling apart
Reaching for you but falling through
Confused I am I'm loosing ground
Embraced by you in my own mind
Holding on to the sweet beliefs
Calling out my own reality screaming out all my fears
Overwhelming by all insanity sacrificed a thousand tears
Calling out in pain my weaknesses fighting to get back whole
Overwhelmed by madness lost in the darkness of my soul
Woke up alone but in my heart
You were there whispering my name
Want to go back to the same old place
Where we belonged until death do us part
I close my eyes and numb my heart
Wish for sleep but only face my truth
Embraced by you in my own mind
Holding on to the sweet beliefs
Calling out my own reality screaming out all my fears
Overwhelming by all insanity sacrificed a thousand tears
Calling out in pain my weaknesses fighting to get back whole
Overwhelmed by madness lost in the darkness of my soul"


By Beseech from Sunless Days 2005